i make a drawing and water makes a drawing

thing chaos (moving)

i thought i'd document our moving week chaos--
this one i call--

dino house! with fire station

styro!

middle of the room

duct tape & packing tape (virginia wolf)

napkins,dried stems (some of us in the universe are definitely inspired by moyra davey's work)

(and really in the spirit of each small thing mattering in our days)
purple clover petals, dirt specks inchoate!

a light breather breathing

the garbage

petals & styrofoam

aloe

hey chaos is mooing

perhaps i am trying to control the chaos by loving it? i do not love it.
i am a mother and my world already always feels out of control.
i should learn to love swirls. i should try so hard to love tumbling.
i should maybe love jumping up and down. i should be okay with minutes
and i should like the uncontrolled. as b. hillman says
"our very greatest human thing is wild"
so, me and my chaos of the recent minutes, in love:

chaos #1: little kitten

chaos #2: loop(s)

chaos #3: notebooks,envelope

chaos #4: city,books

chaos #5: bedroom with monster cat

chaos #6: whales are happy (corner to remember)

chaos #7: finn is napping (a check out beautiful redorangeyellowgreen quilt made by adrienne)

chaos #8: 2 owls:::::plus camel,giraffe,turtle,whale,rhino,hippo
[and i am taking these pictures not packing]

boat arms

Boating Arms (healing)

arms to be a boat with
Boat arms
Canoe eyes
Grass

a big small thing to do

we are moving to this small blue house on coralville lake over the next week. . .good-bye to finn's birth-house and our wedding-party-backyard--hello to the lake and a fireplace and deer in the backyard and north liberty (?)

chair portraits (stella, finn, estelle)

in the rumpus room

mischevious stella with her pregnant mama in the background!

finn & estelle & stella running around the rumpus room! (note finn & estelle's matching overalls!)

more of what's new

new: raw barley and orzo//// egg and mushroom soup with chocolate sprinkles

what's new, i mean, is finn's new kitchen, and making "soup" in it with him!

a newly closeted & organized fabric corner! (not for long i suppose since we are moving soon . . .)

peter in his new t-shirt; about 6 t-shirts made up the bulk of his solstice/christmas presents from me, since i had recently discovered threadless (thanks to janna and kelsey!)

popovers made from previously mentioned new cookbook!

things new in our 2010 lives

finn's new obsession! (sesame street)the mama herself is kind of obsessed with planet earth. . .

new sewing machine! with fabric pile.

awesome new cookbook.

awesome uncle leaf-made kraken lounging atop the dollhouse!

freshly organized and cubby-holed toy corner!

thing i love

file under::thing to be so cozed-up in, made for me by a beloved one -------//////adrienne-made star snuggie

hour vow (in tens)

this is a self-portrait in my parent's downstairs bathroom mirror



the main point of this post is to say i have created for myself an hour vow. if anyone else wants to do it along with me cool! or make your own. or, never, never do anything like this. mine is:::::

*******HOUR VOW**************

1 dedicate [at least] one hour each day no matter what to creating poems or music

2 do this starting january 10th 2010 until (or beyond) october 10th 2010

3 do it when possible with this in mind, from poet myung mi kim's poem "duration":

"This is to be sung"
"This is to be done"

The lyric undertakes the task of deciphering and embodying a "particularizable" prosody of one's living

. . .song making and song gesture. . .

The poem may be . . .the ear by which the prosody by which to calibrate the liberative potential of writing, storehouse of the human. . .

To probe the terms under which we denote, participate in, and speak of cultural and human practices

To mobilize the notion of our responsibility to one another in social space