what really happened this week

we did make this discovery: a trail that is a ten minute walk from our house! and it goes all around the city, along the river, up and over. . . it makes me happy and now i dream of biking, biking, all around this place, day-long bike trips here or there:::::::::::::::::::::
and we saw some yard beauties along the way:::::::
also this week finn made a flag with his uncle, something he has been talking about doing. yes, for some reason, he really wanted his own flag (oh and he was allowed to borrow and spaceship as well, and a headband was created:::::::::


we have gone a bit nuts here if you can't tell, too poor to do much, waiting for first paychecks, and waiting for the fall schedule to begin (and it starts tomorrow!)--but in the long hours of playing by himself, finn has been doing some cool things, like making spiderwebs:::::::

and we did make bread too--

and drank tea with it~

and walked to our nearby park::::

for swimming/ splashing!

and lastly i did manage to do some of that reading. here's mary ruefle talking about fear and failure, from the essay "On Fear". . . it was appropriate for me to read and think about, let me tell you. (lately i think about those two terribles, my fears and failures, quite often, too much) anyway here it is:

"The impulse toward order is born of fear and desire, and the impulse toward chaos is born of the same. The British psychoanalyst D. W. Winnicott believed artists were people driven by the desire to communicate and the desire to hide.

(. . .)In Epicurean atomic theory, "the world functions because from the outset there is lack of balance." The French novelist Georges Perec, devoted to mathematical literary forms--he wrote a novel without the letter e in it--speaks of anti-constraints within a world of restraints. He quotes the painter Paul Klee: "Genius is 'an error in the system.' " . . .The world functions because of fear, because of the error, the ant-constraint, the anti-perfect, the anti-balance. We stumble. We fall.

We fail. And so desire to progress, to become better poets, to eradicate disease, to become better people, to perfect that which is perpetually imperfect. The biblical "fall" is just such an anti-constraint. The apple was fear. (And remember, fear is knowledge, according to Nietzsche.) The apple set the world in motion by forcing Adam and Eve to migrate out of the Perfect. "Fear is to recognize ourselves," said the philosopher. . . "